Church Butterflies

Its been over a month since I wrote a blog. I think its time to fix that! This month has been a really hard month for me. I was really sick for a while. Sick enough that I went to the doctor! I never go to the doctor! I hate going to the doctor! Its been years since I had to have an antibiotic! Nonetheless, this time, I needed an antibiotic to get better. Luckily the medicine worked and so did the blessing! I got better :D The only problem is that the cough I had hung on. It wasn't going away. Then it started to get worse. It seemed like I was praying a lot for my cough to go away. That doesn't seem like such a bad thing to pray for right? Anyways as I was sitting in church on sunday during sunday school, we were talking about the miracle of when Christ feeds the five thousand. Then later people start to follow him and he basically says that all they are wanting is a free lunch. Thats when it hit me. I had been praying for my cough to go away and to get better. I had been praying for what I wanted. Prayers are answered on faith. (ok, well God always answeres prayers, but I think you know what I mean). Did I have faith that my prayers would be answered? Yes. Absolutely. But I had been having faith that my prayers would be answered how I wanted them to be answered. I had been having the 'faith' that God would give me what I wanted just because I asked for it. I needed to have the faith that God will give me what He thinks is best for me, which most of the time, isn't what I want. I remember watching a show with John Bytheway (I think it was him. If not him, then it was some other funny Mormon guy) and he was talking about how greatful he is to have a Father who loves us so much that sometimes he says 'no'. So I realized that I need to start putting more trust in God and his plan for me.