Nervous Butterflies

Well today is Tuesday June 28,2011. I had always dreamed of getting married on june 28. I don't know why, but the date seemed like a good one. Now as everything is approaching, I'm kind of glad that we didn't get married today. Mainly because our preperations are not all completed and we didn't even finish up our invitations until last week. (Even just tonight I had two more I had to make for some friends). The wedding is next week and approaching very quickly! Its almost scary how little time we have actually have left. My wedding has always been something that was way far off in the future. It caused me lots of hard times and tears because it was taking so long for it to arrive and for me to find someone. Now that its here its a very scary thought. Its a good one for sure and I'm so excited for it, but i do have my own little sad things. Such as my name change. I have always loved being a Benson. I have loved having that name and being a part of the family I am. Now my name will no longer be that and no one will know me as Benson anymore. While Ford is a very good name, and I feel very honored to have that name and that family now, I still feel just a twing of sadness that my name will change. However, the trade is well worth it! Also this week I am to do something I have never gone through before. I am very nervous about that, but I know it will be a good thing. There have been so many different things that Bryce and I have encountered together throughout our engagement. Some big, some little. Some not expected at all. Neither of us thought that I would all of a sudden have to go in for surgery!! That was a very nervous experience for me. The closeset things to a surgery i had ever had was when I got my wisdom teeth removed, and that doesn't really count because I was awake for it!! They didn't even give me the choice for this surgery, they just said they will put me under. It was an interesting experience. Not as bad as I thought it would be, but not very fun anyways. But Bryce was very supportive through all of it! I'm glad to have him. (My Mom and family were also very good at supporting me too!) Anyways just lots of changes and lots of things taking place. But the changes are good and soon we will be married and get to go to Disneyland and start our life together!!!! Thats the part I'm excited for!!!!