perspective

Last week I took a trip up to Idaho. Since there is not much to do in Idaho I had lots of time to think. For some reason one morning I was thinking about death. My Mom has given me this example about a ship. How on one side the people are sad because the ship is leaving, but on the other side the people are excited and saying 'here it comes!' While in Idaho I kept feeling like there was something that I needed to be doing back in my life in Utah that I was not accomplishing while in Idaho, and how good it would feel to get back to my life. I started thinking about death and how maybe the person is relieved once they are dead cause then they feel like they are finally where they are meant to be and able to do what they are meant to be doing. While here on earth we get so caught up in mundane trival things, maybe once we are dead we realize that those things don't truly matter and then we can focus on what really matters most...

My way to change the world! a pipe dream.

So this week I have had a few of my faults pointed out to me in several different ways. While most people would probably find this to be an unhappy experiece, I am so so so excited about it! These are flaws that I have been wanting to work on and have just not been sure on how to do so. After they were pointed out to me I spent hours thinking and doing research in the scriptures and my patriarchle blessing. I spent a lot of time with God too. Now a few days later I am still super excited for these changes. I am excited for a few different reasons. One because I get to create. I get to spend time thinking about the person I want to be and then create it! Plus I have the best creative partner ever!...God! He and I have been spending a lot of time together discussing what it is that we both want for me and for my life, and for the first time we are both in agreement! Last night I worked the cash register for my whole shift at work. While normally this is not one of my favorite things to do, I decided that I was going to make the most of it and use it for my benefit. Since one of the flaws pointed out to me is that I am depressed too often, and that I have too many walls up (both of which are true) I decided that I was going to be happy and open and to love each customer who came through my line and to find the good in them. I also wanted to be able to make each customer smile at least once before they left my line. While doing this experiment I realized that I was having the time of my life! Imagine, having so much fun while stuck on a cash register! Crazy! I have not had that much fun in a long time! This lead me to think about how my smiling and being super happy made the customer smile. I realized that when people are super happy it always rubs off on me and makes my day better. So this is my master plan for changing the world. I am going to use chain reactions! If I can be super happy and smiling at everyone I come in contact with,then maybe they will be happier and smile at the people they come in contact with, and maybe that will just keep going and going and going. They say that everybody is connected by six people. So maybe if I can influence the people around me, then they will influence those around them and perhaps all together we will create a world (or the world around us) that is much happier and has fewer problems!